So I've been away from my blog to deal with stuff. Having to deal with a truck full of boxes from grandma's house, sorting china, crystal, jewelry and other household stuff. Trying to research patterns of crystal and china to figure out the approximate value has been a daunting task!! I've always said that I never wanted to be involved with a relatives estate and who gets what and how much. I find it repulsive to hear or see family fight over a dead relatives belongs and money, money, money!! It shows such a disrespect for the departed and greed among the survivors of the departed. Having spent money I didn't have to spend on renting a truck and gas to pick up the goods, I would only ask to get reimbursed for that. Although I feel a bit dirty in just seeking that much.
Anyway, my house is full of boxes and boxes of all my grandma's things leaving no room to even walk around or get from one room to another. But, I'll do what needs to be done and sooner or later my home will be back to normal.
In the meantime, I've been on and off my meds which has been disasterous making me quite ill which just adds to the stress of sorting items, researching vintage stuff and helping to decide what goes to charity and which family member gets what. You would think...how hard is it to remember to take one pill a day? Well, forgetting to take it or not eating properly so you can take the pill are some of my reason, but really those are not good reasons at all. There is simply no excuse for not taking my pill. I have no one to blame but myself for feeling sick from withdrawal and not eating right.
Self critizism can be a good thing so long as I see that it will help me recognize behavior that are hurdles to me getting better. I don't look for pity nor do I want it!! I must dedicate time each day to recovery. Easier said then done but the only way to get better, return to a productive life, have fun, feel good about myself and explore my new surroundings. All things I would so love in my life!!
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