Better In Time For The Good Weather

Yes, yes...my cold is finally gone.  Hooray!  The weather is absolutely beautiful...high 80s and lovin every bit of it.  I hear that the northeast got some snow or at least flurries.  So, you wonder if I miss the northeast, my old neighborhood?  Not one bit!!!  I'll have my deck by the end of next month, my outdoor fireplace (portable fireplace?) and next the pool.  Life is good. 
Not that I'm trying to make my housebound too good to leave but a few hard earned luxeries (regardless of how small) is just a way to enjoy life despite my situtation.  Be happy and focus on the good stuff is a step in the direction of recovery, right?  I will not dwell on life's drama, hardships and annoyances, but bathe in the little things that give me pleasure.
OK...my life is not peaches and cream, I get pissed, frustrated, annoyed, sad and bored, but I do my very best to give as little energy as possible to those irks.  I rarely stay pissed off at anyone or anything for more the ten minutes.  I've learned to walk away when I get frustrated while working on a project, whatever it might be.  Best way to ruin something your working on is by working on it when you get frustrated. Walk away.  I try to recognize boredom and or sadness as soon as possible to force myself to divert my attention to something else.  Brush the dogs or play with them, clean something, read, anything to direct my energy somewhere else. 
Forcing myself to do things I don't want to deal with might seem like a bad thing for me to do.  I mean dealing with my fears is something I don't want to do, don't want to face but in the end facing these fears will ulitmately feel really good, a sense of accomplishment, a feeling of being normal...and normal is a good thing, at least for me it is. 
So, having something to look forward to, without any anxiety is totally awesome.  I look forward to my new deck.  I'll invite neighbors over for a BBQ, talk shit and have some real good times.  Maybe get some friends from the northeast to come for a visit and have a real blast.  Hell, I might even invite some relatives over for some outstanding barbeque and probably have a good time.  If not, then at least I know that they'll go home and I'll still have my deck, my dogs, my outdoor fireplace and a good book.
I'm out!