OK...first off, I needed to see a new dr. so I could get my meds refilled (effexor) because I've moved to a new state. I got an appointment at a "clinic". The "real" dr. wasn't in and I saw someone who calls himself a "P.A." and I really have no idea what that is but that is who I saw. Totally asshole!! This "P.A." said that "this type of medication is constantly abused" and he was not comfortable writing a script for it. Are you kidding me? You can't get high from effexor!! It's not like xanax or Valium. Who the hell is this guy kidding?!? This isn't some kind of narcotic that I can sell on the streets to make some fast money. What The Hell!!!!!
So here I am going through the first signs of withdrawal and this guy is trying to tell me that you don't have any withdrawal symptoms after only two days without this med. HUH???? What the hell does he know? I absolutely get withdrawal after being off the meds for two days. This guy was a total asshole who wanted to seem like an expert in mental health. He didn't have a clue.
Anyway, after waiting an hour to get to see this moron and listen to his inaccurate, clueless rant he finally wrote a prescription for 7 pills. Like I'm now suppose to bow down and kiss his wrinkled, marshmallow ass for 7 pills of this highly abused, addictive drug. Please!! I took the script and I'll make an appointment with someone else who is a REAL doctor who knows what the hell effexor is and why I need it.
On a happier note, I did make it to that assholes office and was able to wait the hour to get my "drug fix" and drive back home with little anxiety despite the withdrawal. Which is a very satisfying accomplishment. I'll have to go back on Monday or Tuesday to get a real prescription for a months worth of pills and hopefully have a doctor that will be willing to continue to refill the meds as I need them. After years of therapy most of my shrinks have pretty much done what that can for me. Not to sound like a know-it-all, but even the shrinks agree that I know as much about agoraphobia and what I must do to overcome the problem as they know about it. I still need the meds with or without the mental health therapy. It's not like I just take the meds and sit home and do nothing to overcome my problem. I work at it everyday. I still believe that I can overcome the problem and once again become the independent, productive citizen I use to be. Perhaps, somewhere there is a site where a therapist joins a chat room once a week to help people with agoraphobia. This would be really wonderful and could really help people with agoraphobia who are completely housebound. Actually, I've never really searched for such a site...maybe there is already one out there somewhere. I'll have to look into that...which I will...today!
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