Another year, another set of resolutions and another year of not keeping those resolutions. I never really was one for the whole resolution thing, at least not openly to other people. Even the resolutions I kept to myself, I never really made any real attempt to keep. Eat healthier, quit smoking, cut back to one pot of coffee a day and all those other bullshit promises folks make to feel better. Anyway, I still eat junk food, smoke, drink way too much coffee and yet I still feel pretty good about myself.
Why focus on the negative...know what I mean? I think I'm a good person...at least I try to be. I'm a good neighbor, I try to help others when I can and I do volunteer work (fostering dogs). I'm told I should do more for myself. Do more to overcome my agoraphobia. I admit I don't do all I can to get better. I don't push myself enough. Yeah, it's hard but that's not the reason. I just get lazy and with the grand excuse of "it'll give me a panic attack" I free to sit at home and pity myself.
I don't get depressed...actually, for the most part a pretty happy person. So, the hell with the resolutions that are bullshit. I will make a honest effort to go out more. I really quite like it when I do. Will I make that my "resolution"....hell no! I'll do my best to go out because I enjoy the end result.
Happy New Year. Why not?
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